Revival

These song lyrics have really been speaking to my heart this week..

Revival-Soul Savers

Said gonna be a revival tonight ooh
I wanna see a revival yeah
Gonna be a revival tonight
Lord, let there be a revival yeah

Forgive what I have done
It means my soul's survival, oohh
I need you so,it's sin
Put an end to my suffering oh

Why am I so blind with my eyes wide open? ooh
Trying to get my hands clean in dirty water

I wanna see a revival tonight
Lord, let there be a revival yeah
I need to see a revival tonight oh
Wanna see a revival oohh

Why am I so blind with my eyes wide open? yeah
Now I need someone
Let this dark night be done oh

I need you so,it's sin
Put an end to my suffering
I wanna see a revival tonight
Lord, there needs to be a revival

I have been up late the past few nights praying and crying out for a change. It has been 10 years since God took me out of the dark place I was in and offered me forgiveness and new life. Although I have not once doubted His presence in my life since then and spend personal time with Him daily, it is still easy to lose your way again, to become self-absorbed and caught up in the daily struggles of life. To try to carry too many burdens on your own, to focus on what you don't have instead of the blessing you've been given.. to think you can take on everything alone.

I am a stubborn person, it takes a lot for me to ask for help, although I am slowly learning how. I am also a dreamer and an avid researcher, always filled with ideas, inspiration, and intense passion, but I am always trying to plan and direct my own route. I want to do what God wants me to do, as long as it lines up with my plans and ideas. But what I am learning time and time again is that his plans are not always the same as ours and sometimes when we get pushed up against a wall and we find ourselves in between a rock and a hard place, we have no other choice but to cry out to God to help get us out of the situation we've gotten ourselves into. I find myself in this place quite often.

Something is different this time though, I have an unexplainable urgency in my soul to pray that God breaks down the barriers, not just in my own life.. but in the lives of others. The hungry, the lost, the cold and frightened people out there who are desperately searching to find some kind of meaning in life, but are looking in all the wrong places. I am guilty of this myself. Sometimes I try so hard to uncover the meaning behind something and to find the answers on my own, that I fail to miss what was right in front of me all the time. Just as in the song lyrics, he writes, "why am I so blind with my eyes wide open?" We need to seek within our hearts guidance, that our eyes and hearts be opened to the life that God wants us to live. He wants to fulfill our every passion and wildest dreams. If only we will put our lives in His hands, He will bring us out of the darkness and help us to find our way back home once again. I was just reading a scripture the other day that spoke of true faith, which means not only having a belief in something, but truly letting go of your life and offering it up to God in every way. Just as Jesus told his prophets to leave behind everything and follow Him. I am so ready to go..

I have been going through a cleanse now for months, God says that we cannot live on bread alone and this is something that I have become very familiar with. There have been nights where I have awoken with hunger pains that food could not fill. A yearning so deep that I can almost taste it. I feel such an enormous stirring, I believe that we are all ready for a change. We have grown weary of being stuck in our everyday monotonous rut, just going through the motions.. but for what? I don't know about you, but I have to believe that we are called to do things above and beyond our daily jobs and household tasks. That God wants to use each of us to bring about change in this world.

I am excited to see where He leads me.. I hope you will come too. :)

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