Poppy panda

This year I am trying ("trying" being the key word here) to focus on the best in others. To notice the good and overlook the bad. Last night I got annoyed with the poppy because I had asked him more than once to return a lamp we had bought that was missing it's shade. I finally decided to take the matter into my own hands and annoyingly stood in the customer service line for at lease 30 minutes. I made it clear last night that I was irritated about the situation. Sometimes I feel he purposely puts off doing things for as long as possible because he knows I will grow impatient and end up doing them myself.

Since I already opened up about my winter depression. We mine as well move on now to my next problem.. insomnia. I have suffered from severe sleep problems since I became pregnant with my oldest son. During the past six years I have tried every natural sleep remedy you can think of, and am unfortunately dependent on taking Unisom to get a full (or at least a partial) nights rest. Sometimes even that doesn't help though. Last night was one of those nights. Now I know it's not the poppy's fault that I can't sleep, but as I lay there and watch him slumber as I am wide awake it upsets me and I begin to feel alone. So I wake him just to let him know I'm not sleeping. He's used to it and is as patient as he can possibly be at 3 in the morning with me, asking "What can I do for you mama to help?" I grumble and throw a mini-tantrum, "Sigh.. nothing." But just knowing that he cares helps. And the fact that I'm not the only one awake now helps too. :) On top of that, he went into work a little late this morning just so I could get a few hours of sleep. I woke up feeling grateful to have him and sorry that I made such a big deal out of the lamp the night before. Still slightly sleep-deprived I wandered downstairs to later discover that he had also emptied the dishwasher. (Another issue I had just recently with him.) He may not always listen to everything I say, or at the least.. selectively hear what he wants to, but occasionally he does pay attention and the little things he does to help me out mean a whole lot.

Thank you :)