"Growth means change and change involves risk, stepping from the known to the unknown"
-Author Unknown
"Faith never knows where it is being led, but it knows and loves the one who is leading" -Oswald Chambers
Thank you all for your encouraging words, love and prayers. :)
Blessings,
Erin
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Don't worry, I'm still alive!
Hey everyone.. sorry to keep you waiting in suspense. Thank you for all of your concerns and prayers, they mean a lot to me. Knowing I have the support and love of people I have never met simply blows my mind. :)
So, after a long and difficult ten year battle (aka; marriage) and quite a few separations over the years, J and I finally filed for divorce.
Our lease here is not up for another 7 months and we will continue living together as "roommates" as we have been until that time comes. It will give the boys and I a chance to adjust and prepare for the enormous amount of change that is to come. Our oldest was upset at first, but they have seen us go through this for some time now, and were caught in the middle of a several month long separation a few years ago, so it did not come entirely by surprise to them.
He and I were friends for many years before we dated and married, and we will continue to remain close friends, connected always through our children. It was a mutual agreement, something that should maybe have been reached long before now. But we held on to hope and tried our hardest for years to keep our family together. We finally reached our limit though and are now just waiting for the process to be complete so we can move on with our separate lives.
There is a great amount of peace between us as this heavy weight we have been carrying around for so long now has finally been broken and lifted. It is through the strength and love of God that I have made it through this difficult time.. and I have faith that He will continue to guide me as I embark upon this new journey.
It has to end to begin. :)
Thank you again,
I love you all and will keep you posted..
Erin
So, after a long and difficult ten year battle (aka; marriage) and quite a few separations over the years, J and I finally filed for divorce.
Our lease here is not up for another 7 months and we will continue living together as "roommates" as we have been until that time comes. It will give the boys and I a chance to adjust and prepare for the enormous amount of change that is to come. Our oldest was upset at first, but they have seen us go through this for some time now, and were caught in the middle of a several month long separation a few years ago, so it did not come entirely by surprise to them.
He and I were friends for many years before we dated and married, and we will continue to remain close friends, connected always through our children. It was a mutual agreement, something that should maybe have been reached long before now. But we held on to hope and tried our hardest for years to keep our family together. We finally reached our limit though and are now just waiting for the process to be complete so we can move on with our separate lives.
There is a great amount of peace between us as this heavy weight we have been carrying around for so long now has finally been broken and lifted. It is through the strength and love of God that I have made it through this difficult time.. and I have faith that He will continue to guide me as I embark upon this new journey.
It has to end to begin. :)
Thank you again,
I love you all and will keep you posted..
Erin
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Blogging hiatus
Hey everyone.. just wanted you all to know that I am going through some personal things right now that I don't feel quite ready to write about, so I just need a bit of time to myself to process everything. I will be back soon.
Much love,
Erin
Much love,
Erin
Friday, October 2, 2009
Parables and preparation
The weather has become cold and rainy.. this week we began to prepare for winter by having our radiators prepped, the boiler lit, and the attic vent insulated. Next week I have someone coming over to clean out the wood burning stove in out kitchen and show me how to build a proper fire. Large old houses require lots of winter preparation.. unless of course you want your utility bills to go through the roof. I have also continued stocking up on warm clothing and blankets and still need to buy a couple of space heaters. We have been inside more this week and the boys have been spending lots of time reading and writing. We have checked out many books from the library and have been studying the Parables of Jesus and comparing how those stories relate to our own lives. There has also been lots of bed jumping, lego building, piano playing, and Star Wars collage making..
Already I can feel the cold beginning to creep beneath my skin.. and have been daydreaming of traveling to warmer places. It has been chilly at night and I have found myself wrestling once again with insomnia. It is only in the late hours of the night that I can finally find some peace and quiet, some time to myself.. and yet, once my mind starts going I have difficulty getting it to stop. There is so much I have been wanting to write.. more of myself I want to share, but I can't seem to find enough time. I have been continuing "soul searching".. praying, writing, listening to music. I started re-reading a book that I bought almost 10 years ago while living in Nashville that I have never finished, "The Four Loves" by C.S. Lewis. It has brought back many memories from that time in my life.. and I find it interesting (but not surprising) that parts of the book I didn't understand back then, make perfect sense to me now. I have grown and changed so much since those days.. although many things I knew then have been lost over time and I find myself trying to get back to the beginning again. To remember where I came from.. where I've been.. so that I can take that knowledge and experience with me as I continue on this journey. Emotionally and physically it has been a draining week for me.. anxiety has been trying to take hold. My future suddenly seems uncertain, as I prepare to make some changes in the coming months ahead.
I apologize for being so vague, but running on only a few hours of sleep last night my mind feels slow and numb. Spiritually though I feel more awake than I have ever felt inside.. and I must keep reminding myself that over time this Season too shall pass. (Mathew 6: 25-34)
Eventually we all move on and become scattered about..
May your weekend be filled with new doors just waiting to be opened and explored..
XOXO, Erin
Already I can feel the cold beginning to creep beneath my skin.. and have been daydreaming of traveling to warmer places. It has been chilly at night and I have found myself wrestling once again with insomnia. It is only in the late hours of the night that I can finally find some peace and quiet, some time to myself.. and yet, once my mind starts going I have difficulty getting it to stop. There is so much I have been wanting to write.. more of myself I want to share, but I can't seem to find enough time. I have been continuing "soul searching".. praying, writing, listening to music. I started re-reading a book that I bought almost 10 years ago while living in Nashville that I have never finished, "The Four Loves" by C.S. Lewis. It has brought back many memories from that time in my life.. and I find it interesting (but not surprising) that parts of the book I didn't understand back then, make perfect sense to me now. I have grown and changed so much since those days.. although many things I knew then have been lost over time and I find myself trying to get back to the beginning again. To remember where I came from.. where I've been.. so that I can take that knowledge and experience with me as I continue on this journey. Emotionally and physically it has been a draining week for me.. anxiety has been trying to take hold. My future suddenly seems uncertain, as I prepare to make some changes in the coming months ahead.
I apologize for being so vague, but running on only a few hours of sleep last night my mind feels slow and numb. Spiritually though I feel more awake than I have ever felt inside.. and I must keep reminding myself that over time this Season too shall pass. (Mathew 6: 25-34)
Eventually we all move on and become scattered about..
May your weekend be filled with new doors just waiting to be opened and explored..
XOXO, Erin
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Corner View "White"
This week's Corner View topic is "White". I found myself this past week seeing small white details in things I may have ordinarily missed. I also threw in a few extra "white photos" that I have recently taken. To explore other Corner Views, visit Jane at Spain daily for a list of other participants. Enjoy!
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XOXO, Erin
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XOXO, Erin
Monday, September 28, 2009
You picked me. : )
Awww, I feel completely flattered to me nominated for not only one, but two amazing blog awards today by two extremely gorgeous and creative women. Thank you!
The first was from Penny who ever so kindly passed along an Honest Scrap Award to me. And here I was, all worried about sharing TMI. :)
So, here we go.. the rules are as followed below..
a) Say thanks and give a link to the presenter of the award.
b) Share "10 Honest Things" about myself.
c) Present this award to 7 others whose blogs I find brilliant in content and/or design, or those who have encouraged me.
d) Tell those 7 people they've been awarded HONEST SCRAP and inform them of these
guidelines in receiving.
Hmm, now I have to figure out what to share with you that I haven't already!
10 Honest things about myself:
1) I am wearing socks with textured slip-proof suction cup-like things on the bottom.
2) I am extremely accident prone and in one year alone had 2 concussions, 1 falling down the stairs, 1 slight electrocution, and it seems like there is something else I am forgetting.. (probably a result of the concussions.)
3) As klutzy as I am, I have always dreamed of being a ballet dancer, who can on occasion, and if needed.. break out some amazing hip hop moves.
4) I have seen "Save the Last Dance" more times than any other movie.
5) Dry skin bothers me in the same way that finger nails on the chalkboard does other people. I put lotion on my feet before putting on my suction cup socks.
7) I have not started my ballet conditioning workout yet, but hope to before this week is over.
8) My first love was African American, probably another reason why I relate to that movie so much.
9) I don't believe that there is one person for all of us. I think that love comes in many different forms and that we can have many true loves throughout our lifetime.
10) I have attempted to read C.S. Lewis' book "The Four Loves" many times and have never been able to finish it. I might try again..
I am sharing this award with the following 7 honest bloggers..
Kacy
Jane
Chrissy
Amy
Alana
Wendy
Lori
The second award (as if one weren't enough!) came from the lovely Jennifer Aniston.. er.. I mean, Megs. who passed along a Creative Blogger Award to me. :)
Okay, you know the drill..
1. Thank the person who nominated you for this award.
2. Copy the logo and place it on your blog.
3. Link to the person who nominated you for this award.
4. Name 7 things about yourself that people might not know.
5. Nominate 7 Kreative Bloggers.
6. Post links to the 7 blogs you nominate.
7. Leave a comment on each of the blogs letting them know they have been nominated
And AS IF you already haven't learned enough about me, here's a little more!
7 Things that people might not know about me:
1) I have crooked teeth, you wouldn't know because I NEVER smile with my teeth. I had braces when I was younger, but they seem to have shifted back again.
2) Sia is my favorite female musician. She has teeth just like mine.
3) I am so flat-chested that the only place I can find bras in my side is in the girls department (and sometimes H&M). I used to dislike this about myself, but then I read an interview with Erykah Badu once in "Organic Style" magazine saying that she buy hers in the the girls section of Sears and didn't seem the least bit embarrassed by it. I have felt slightly better about myself ever since.
4) I desperately miss "Organic Style" magazine. I have kept all my old issues and re-read them over and over. There will never be another magazine that compares.
5) I am also still in denial that "Gilmore Girls" has ended and watch the reruns on DVD over and over. There will never be another show that compares.
6) If I could have any job in the world it would be to create music soundtracks for television shows and movies.
7) I believe that I am the clay and God is the sculptor. I try daily to be open to change and growth.. as painful of a process as it may sometimes be. "Like an apple on the tree, hiding out behind the leaves, I was difficult to reach.. but you picked me."
And now, I would like to pass along this award to the following 7 creative bloggers..
Haley
Sherry
dongdong
Lisa
Marcy
Mimi
Pink & green mama
I would also like to give an extra one to my lovely and loyal blog follower, Madeline
That was so difficult! Each and every one of you are so beautifully unique and creative! And I don't know about you but.. was that as exhausting to read as it was for me to write?? Ha, I've been staring at the computer for so long now that I am beginning to go cross-eyed. Whew, lets just all close our eyes and listen to some music now. :)
Every time I hear this song, I sing along with it to God. :) Don't you think she looks so much like the beautiful and pregnant Yana?
XOXO, Erin
The first was from Penny who ever so kindly passed along an Honest Scrap Award to me. And here I was, all worried about sharing TMI. :)
So, here we go.. the rules are as followed below..
a) Say thanks and give a link to the presenter of the award.
b) Share "10 Honest Things" about myself.
c) Present this award to 7 others whose blogs I find brilliant in content and/or design, or those who have encouraged me.
d) Tell those 7 people they've been awarded HONEST SCRAP and inform them of these
guidelines in receiving.
Hmm, now I have to figure out what to share with you that I haven't already!
10 Honest things about myself:
1) I am wearing socks with textured slip-proof suction cup-like things on the bottom.
2) I am extremely accident prone and in one year alone had 2 concussions, 1 falling down the stairs, 1 slight electrocution, and it seems like there is something else I am forgetting.. (probably a result of the concussions.)
3) As klutzy as I am, I have always dreamed of being a ballet dancer, who can on occasion, and if needed.. break out some amazing hip hop moves.
4) I have seen "Save the Last Dance" more times than any other movie.
5) Dry skin bothers me in the same way that finger nails on the chalkboard does other people. I put lotion on my feet before putting on my suction cup socks.
7) I have not started my ballet conditioning workout yet, but hope to before this week is over.
8) My first love was African American, probably another reason why I relate to that movie so much.
9) I don't believe that there is one person for all of us. I think that love comes in many different forms and that we can have many true loves throughout our lifetime.
10) I have attempted to read C.S. Lewis' book "The Four Loves" many times and have never been able to finish it. I might try again..
I am sharing this award with the following 7 honest bloggers..
Kacy
Jane
Chrissy
Amy
Alana
Wendy
Lori
The second award (as if one weren't enough!) came from the lovely Jennifer Aniston.. er.. I mean, Megs. who passed along a Creative Blogger Award to me. :)
Okay, you know the drill..
1. Thank the person who nominated you for this award.
2. Copy the logo and place it on your blog.
3. Link to the person who nominated you for this award.
4. Name 7 things about yourself that people might not know.
5. Nominate 7 Kreative Bloggers.
6. Post links to the 7 blogs you nominate.
7. Leave a comment on each of the blogs letting them know they have been nominated
And AS IF you already haven't learned enough about me, here's a little more!
7 Things that people might not know about me:
1) I have crooked teeth, you wouldn't know because I NEVER smile with my teeth. I had braces when I was younger, but they seem to have shifted back again.
2) Sia is my favorite female musician. She has teeth just like mine.
3) I am so flat-chested that the only place I can find bras in my side is in the girls department (and sometimes H&M). I used to dislike this about myself, but then I read an interview with Erykah Badu once in "Organic Style" magazine saying that she buy hers in the the girls section of Sears and didn't seem the least bit embarrassed by it. I have felt slightly better about myself ever since.
4) I desperately miss "Organic Style" magazine. I have kept all my old issues and re-read them over and over. There will never be another magazine that compares.
5) I am also still in denial that "Gilmore Girls" has ended and watch the reruns on DVD over and over. There will never be another show that compares.
6) If I could have any job in the world it would be to create music soundtracks for television shows and movies.
7) I believe that I am the clay and God is the sculptor. I try daily to be open to change and growth.. as painful of a process as it may sometimes be. "Like an apple on the tree, hiding out behind the leaves, I was difficult to reach.. but you picked me."
And now, I would like to pass along this award to the following 7 creative bloggers..
Haley
Sherry
dongdong
Lisa
Marcy
Mimi
Pink & green mama
I would also like to give an extra one to my lovely and loyal blog follower, Madeline
That was so difficult! Each and every one of you are so beautifully unique and creative! And I don't know about you but.. was that as exhausting to read as it was for me to write?? Ha, I've been staring at the computer for so long now that I am beginning to go cross-eyed. Whew, lets just all close our eyes and listen to some music now. :)
Every time I hear this song, I sing along with it to God. :) Don't you think she looks so much like the beautiful and pregnant Yana?
XOXO, Erin
Weekend photo stream...
The rain stopped long enough to be able to get a bit of fresh air and exercise this weekend. It's such a beautiful time of year to wander around, explore nature, and just let your imagination run wild.. I thought I would give you a glimpse into my weekend by sharing some photos I took. Hope you enjoy!
Hope you all had a fun and restful weekend as well. :)
Hope you all had a fun and restful weekend as well. :)
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