I am finally starting to physically heal. I went back to the doctor yesterday after taking all of my antibiotics because I was still having ear pain. I found out that I also now have a sinus infection, which is the reason for the continued pain and pressure. I am now on my second dose of antibiotics. I also suffered through a 24 hour flu bug the other evening on top of everything else. Thankfully it seems to have passed and my lungs have mostly cleared up as well. I know so many people are struggling now with sickness and I pray healing for all of you who not feeling well... may God bring you strength and comfort.
Emotionally I am finally healing as well. I had a rough week... it was a time of mourning for me as I looked back upon 10 years of marriage. I feel it hit me a lot harder because I was so physically weak and at my most vulnerable. As I have said, to me it ended 3 years ago when we took off our rings. But we continued holding onto hope, holding on for our boys and for our family. The marriage was broken, but we were not free from the past completely. So, when the papers were finally signed, I felt a sudden rush of release. Someone close to me compared it recently to being told of an accident, a death... knowing it to be true and trying to come to terms with the fact, but it not completely sinking in until you are standing over the coffin... a flood of memories rushing back... the finality of it all sets in, and eventually acceptance comes.
I feel the need to clarify though that although I experienced a sort of "death", there was so much release and peace afterward. I went through what you could say was, a resurrection. I feel more fully alive than I have ever felt before. My senses are acute... my heart filled to the brim... I allowed myself to be emptied of the past, while taking with me so much wisdom as I move on. My faith has continued to strengthen as I spent several intimate days alone with God. I took much time asking for forgiveness, purging myself of sin, of guilt for mistakes that I have made in the past... and I have been able to release those things, become cleansed again, and given the chance to begin a new life... I feel emptied and yet completely filled with love, happiness, and an amazing sense of peace. Lord, it feels so good to be alive again! This coming new year is going to have such a significant meaning to me. :)
"I was born to laugh, I learned to laugh through my tears. I was born to love, I'm going to learn to love, without fear..."
Amazingly enough... through all these years of heartache and struggle and pain and emptiness... God has seen the desires of my heart. He has heard my cries through many dark days and nights... He knows exactly and perfectly what it is that I have desired for so long now. I am a bit hesitant to openly share this, but...
Slowly... ever so softly... and a bit unexpectedly...
A friendship of mine has recently unfolded into a beautiful new love. The thousands of miles that separate us are giving me the time and space I need to heal and transition... it is teaching me patience and giving me strength as I enter into this new season of my life. This time around I am going about things a bit differently.. I am letting go and allowing God to lead. Our relationship is centered around Him and we trust that everything will continue to unfold in His timing... in the meantime, we are continuing to build upon our friendship as we have committed ourselves to one another in a long-distance courtship. I never in a million years expected this, and yet it feels as though I have been preparing and waiting my entire life for him. I am so incredibly happy. :)
More soon...
XOXO, Erin
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Heal for the Honey
Oh my sweet friends, how long it has been since I have shared... I mean, really shared what's been going on in my day to day life. The process has been so chaotic, too much to put into words for me... I have needed time to process before sharing with you. I have finally reached a place where I feel comfortable opening up....
I had an upper respiratory infection for a couple weeks earlier this month and tried to fight it off with vitamins, homeopathic medicine, lots of fluids, etc. During that time I took a trip (more about that soon) and my ears were burning on the plane... I returned home and finally gave in and went to Urgent Care to find out that the bronchitis had progressed into pneumonia and that I also had a double ear infection. I was put on a breathing treatment immediately and given antibiotics and also a steroid treatment. It has been scary not being able to catch my breath even while laying still, and the pain in my lungs and ears at times were almost unbearable. They still hurt and I am still recovering.... I am doing a bit better, but may have to return to the doctor again this week for a second treatment.
The boys went to stay with my mom, and then my dad & step-mom over Thanksgiving and are returning tomorrow. J went to his mom's and then to stay with a "friend" (more on that later as well) for the weekend... So, I have been here by myself for the past couple of days.
The first day was difficult in the sense that I am so used to having people around me at all times. The silence was at times a bit unnerving, but eventually I gave into the quietness.. and attempted to come to terms with the idea that soon, I will be on my own again. I have been at home with the boys since our oldest was born. It has been over 7 years since I have worked out of the house. I have formed my own routines and they have become quite comfortable. It is going to take some time to adjust once I begin working again. I have also been struggling with the idea of having to go from being with my children all day long to the possibility of having to work two jobs and barely see them anymore... So,
I have also decided that I am going to go to school. I always felt that onc day I eventually would... before having children, while we were living in Nashville I bought a book called "Aveda Rituals". The book is not only just about their products, but an understanding of what the company stands for and a guide towards living a healthier and more balanced life. I was instantly smitten and knew that one day I wanted to work for this company. There is an Aveda school here that I just found out offers part-time evening and weekend classes that I could take and be finished in only 9 months. My hope is that I can get enough financial help that I will only have to work part-time and still be able to be home for my children after school. I have to wait now though for the divorce to be finalized before I can apply for assistance. I plan to study Esthiology, to become a Spa Therapist. I have found that touch can have such a healing effect. As a parent, I have often found it difficult to take time to myself to nurture and pamper my body. But stress... as I very well know, can lead to sickness... and it is so important to listen to your body and to take time to focus on your own needs. I love the idea of helping to teach people how to take care of their skin and to ease tension through massage, aromatherapy, and by living a balanced lifestyle. Although, I have to admit, it is something I am still learning myself... but I am excited about the process. :)
Yesterday was a completely different sort of day. I did not sleep at all the night before and after many fitful attempts of not being able to nap I gave into the frustrations, the irritations... and just began to release it all. I allowed myself to have a much needed and lengthy temper tantrum (yes, there was kicking and pillow punching, screaming, and growling... ) I allowed the darkness to sink in and just sit with me for a bit. I let the pain come... the tears flow... J stopped in briefly to check on me and we went together to finally sign our divorce papers. The divorce itself was something I have been preparing myself for quite a while now and came to terms with many years ago. What I did not see coming was the flood of memories and emotions that would hit me once the cycle was permanently broken. I had not been out of the house for over a week, having been sick.. and so as I attempted to get myself dressed and ready to go, anxiety suddenly hit me hard. I managed to pull myself together enough, but my hands were shaking the entire time I was signing. I felt like I was either going to pass out or throw up as 10 years of memories began passing through my mind all at once. It was overwhelming, to say the very least. Last night I took time to look through some old photos throughout the years and spent a lot of time in prayer... trying to let go of all the bad, while still holding onto the good. Two beautiful and healthy boys have come from this marriage and I have learned and grown so much through the process... but 10 years is a large chunk of time and I know there is still more healing to come...
Part of why the divorce process has been taking awhile is because of the costs involved. Recently we had to come up with quite a bit of money for the divorce, but also to have our car fixed, only for something else to immediately go wrong with it. On top of that, the Holidays are here and I have been stressing out about having enough money for groceries, let alone presents, etc. But the other night while praying.. I lifted it all up to God. For my Father in Heaven is rich... He is loving and giving... and all we have to do is ask. So, I allowed myself to let go of all control, and asked Him for financial help. The very next day He answered my prayers. The boys' presents, the car battery, the unexpected extra divorce fees.. have ALL been taken care of! I pray blessings over J's mom, who.. without our asking.. relieved us, through the grace and goodness of God, of all our worries!
Matthew 7:7 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
Finally, last night... although I had difficulty falling asleep.. I finally sank into a deep slumber. I awoke this morning feeling emotionally drained, but rested and renewed. The sun was shining, I brewed some espresso, listened to this song...
And suddenly, I felt so incredibly full! Even in my deepest darkest hours, I know that I am never ALONE. A wise and beautiful man just told me, "Faith is hope set in motion." And I am holding onto those words....
I have so much to be thankful for... including all of your love and prayers... your encouraging words mean the world to me. Thank you for giving me the time and patience I have needed to get through this time period. It is going to be an ongoing journey and healing process, but knowing that I am surrounded by family and friends, and through the strength and by the grace of God, I am finally free of the past.. of the heartache and pain and emptiness... and I will take what I have learned now and continue to move forward. So much good awaits! :) More to come soon.....
I love you all so much.
Blessings, love, and hugs...
Erin
I had an upper respiratory infection for a couple weeks earlier this month and tried to fight it off with vitamins, homeopathic medicine, lots of fluids, etc. During that time I took a trip (more about that soon) and my ears were burning on the plane... I returned home and finally gave in and went to Urgent Care to find out that the bronchitis had progressed into pneumonia and that I also had a double ear infection. I was put on a breathing treatment immediately and given antibiotics and also a steroid treatment. It has been scary not being able to catch my breath even while laying still, and the pain in my lungs and ears at times were almost unbearable. They still hurt and I am still recovering.... I am doing a bit better, but may have to return to the doctor again this week for a second treatment.
The boys went to stay with my mom, and then my dad & step-mom over Thanksgiving and are returning tomorrow. J went to his mom's and then to stay with a "friend" (more on that later as well) for the weekend... So, I have been here by myself for the past couple of days.
The first day was difficult in the sense that I am so used to having people around me at all times. The silence was at times a bit unnerving, but eventually I gave into the quietness.. and attempted to come to terms with the idea that soon, I will be on my own again. I have been at home with the boys since our oldest was born. It has been over 7 years since I have worked out of the house. I have formed my own routines and they have become quite comfortable. It is going to take some time to adjust once I begin working again. I have also been struggling with the idea of having to go from being with my children all day long to the possibility of having to work two jobs and barely see them anymore... So,
I have also decided that I am going to go to school. I always felt that onc day I eventually would... before having children, while we were living in Nashville I bought a book called "Aveda Rituals". The book is not only just about their products, but an understanding of what the company stands for and a guide towards living a healthier and more balanced life. I was instantly smitten and knew that one day I wanted to work for this company. There is an Aveda school here that I just found out offers part-time evening and weekend classes that I could take and be finished in only 9 months. My hope is that I can get enough financial help that I will only have to work part-time and still be able to be home for my children after school. I have to wait now though for the divorce to be finalized before I can apply for assistance. I plan to study Esthiology, to become a Spa Therapist. I have found that touch can have such a healing effect. As a parent, I have often found it difficult to take time to myself to nurture and pamper my body. But stress... as I very well know, can lead to sickness... and it is so important to listen to your body and to take time to focus on your own needs. I love the idea of helping to teach people how to take care of their skin and to ease tension through massage, aromatherapy, and by living a balanced lifestyle. Although, I have to admit, it is something I am still learning myself... but I am excited about the process. :)
Yesterday was a completely different sort of day. I did not sleep at all the night before and after many fitful attempts of not being able to nap I gave into the frustrations, the irritations... and just began to release it all. I allowed myself to have a much needed and lengthy temper tantrum (yes, there was kicking and pillow punching, screaming, and growling... ) I allowed the darkness to sink in and just sit with me for a bit. I let the pain come... the tears flow... J stopped in briefly to check on me and we went together to finally sign our divorce papers. The divorce itself was something I have been preparing myself for quite a while now and came to terms with many years ago. What I did not see coming was the flood of memories and emotions that would hit me once the cycle was permanently broken. I had not been out of the house for over a week, having been sick.. and so as I attempted to get myself dressed and ready to go, anxiety suddenly hit me hard. I managed to pull myself together enough, but my hands were shaking the entire time I was signing. I felt like I was either going to pass out or throw up as 10 years of memories began passing through my mind all at once. It was overwhelming, to say the very least. Last night I took time to look through some old photos throughout the years and spent a lot of time in prayer... trying to let go of all the bad, while still holding onto the good. Two beautiful and healthy boys have come from this marriage and I have learned and grown so much through the process... but 10 years is a large chunk of time and I know there is still more healing to come...
Part of why the divorce process has been taking awhile is because of the costs involved. Recently we had to come up with quite a bit of money for the divorce, but also to have our car fixed, only for something else to immediately go wrong with it. On top of that, the Holidays are here and I have been stressing out about having enough money for groceries, let alone presents, etc. But the other night while praying.. I lifted it all up to God. For my Father in Heaven is rich... He is loving and giving... and all we have to do is ask. So, I allowed myself to let go of all control, and asked Him for financial help. The very next day He answered my prayers. The boys' presents, the car battery, the unexpected extra divorce fees.. have ALL been taken care of! I pray blessings over J's mom, who.. without our asking.. relieved us, through the grace and goodness of God, of all our worries!
Matthew 7:7 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
Finally, last night... although I had difficulty falling asleep.. I finally sank into a deep slumber. I awoke this morning feeling emotionally drained, but rested and renewed. The sun was shining, I brewed some espresso, listened to this song...
And suddenly, I felt so incredibly full! Even in my deepest darkest hours, I know that I am never ALONE. A wise and beautiful man just told me, "Faith is hope set in motion." And I am holding onto those words....
I have so much to be thankful for... including all of your love and prayers... your encouraging words mean the world to me. Thank you for giving me the time and patience I have needed to get through this time period. It is going to be an ongoing journey and healing process, but knowing that I am surrounded by family and friends, and through the strength and by the grace of God, I am finally free of the past.. of the heartache and pain and emptiness... and I will take what I have learned now and continue to move forward. So much good awaits! :) More to come soon.....
I love you all so much.
Blessings, love, and hugs...
Erin
Saturday, November 21, 2009
In this silence I am free...
"Growth means change and change involves risk, stepping from the known to the unknown"
-Author Unknown
"Faith never knows where it is being led, but it knows and loves the one who is leading" -Oswald Chambers
Thank you all for your encouraging words, love and prayers. :)
Blessings,
Erin
-Author Unknown
"Faith never knows where it is being led, but it knows and loves the one who is leading" -Oswald Chambers
Thank you all for your encouraging words, love and prayers. :)
Blessings,
Erin
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Don't worry, I'm still alive!
Hey everyone.. sorry to keep you waiting in suspense. Thank you for all of your concerns and prayers, they mean a lot to me. Knowing I have the support and love of people I have never met simply blows my mind. :)
So, after a long and difficult ten year battle (aka; marriage) and quite a few separations over the years, J and I finally filed for divorce.
Our lease here is not up for another 7 months and we will continue living together as "roommates" as we have been until that time comes. It will give the boys and I a chance to adjust and prepare for the enormous amount of change that is to come. Our oldest was upset at first, but they have seen us go through this for some time now, and were caught in the middle of a several month long separation a few years ago, so it did not come entirely by surprise to them.
He and I were friends for many years before we dated and married, and we will continue to remain close friends, connected always through our children. It was a mutual agreement, something that should maybe have been reached long before now. But we held on to hope and tried our hardest for years to keep our family together. We finally reached our limit though and are now just waiting for the process to be complete so we can move on with our separate lives.
There is a great amount of peace between us as this heavy weight we have been carrying around for so long now has finally been broken and lifted. It is through the strength and love of God that I have made it through this difficult time.. and I have faith that He will continue to guide me as I embark upon this new journey.
It has to end to begin. :)
Thank you again,
I love you all and will keep you posted..
Erin
So, after a long and difficult ten year battle (aka; marriage) and quite a few separations over the years, J and I finally filed for divorce.
Our lease here is not up for another 7 months and we will continue living together as "roommates" as we have been until that time comes. It will give the boys and I a chance to adjust and prepare for the enormous amount of change that is to come. Our oldest was upset at first, but they have seen us go through this for some time now, and were caught in the middle of a several month long separation a few years ago, so it did not come entirely by surprise to them.
He and I were friends for many years before we dated and married, and we will continue to remain close friends, connected always through our children. It was a mutual agreement, something that should maybe have been reached long before now. But we held on to hope and tried our hardest for years to keep our family together. We finally reached our limit though and are now just waiting for the process to be complete so we can move on with our separate lives.
There is a great amount of peace between us as this heavy weight we have been carrying around for so long now has finally been broken and lifted. It is through the strength and love of God that I have made it through this difficult time.. and I have faith that He will continue to guide me as I embark upon this new journey.
It has to end to begin. :)
Thank you again,
I love you all and will keep you posted..
Erin
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Blogging hiatus
Hey everyone.. just wanted you all to know that I am going through some personal things right now that I don't feel quite ready to write about, so I just need a bit of time to myself to process everything. I will be back soon.
Much love,
Erin
Much love,
Erin
Friday, October 2, 2009
Parables and preparation
The weather has become cold and rainy.. this week we began to prepare for winter by having our radiators prepped, the boiler lit, and the attic vent insulated. Next week I have someone coming over to clean out the wood burning stove in out kitchen and show me how to build a proper fire. Large old houses require lots of winter preparation.. unless of course you want your utility bills to go through the roof. I have also continued stocking up on warm clothing and blankets and still need to buy a couple of space heaters. We have been inside more this week and the boys have been spending lots of time reading and writing. We have checked out many books from the library and have been studying the Parables of Jesus and comparing how those stories relate to our own lives. There has also been lots of bed jumping, lego building, piano playing, and Star Wars collage making..
Already I can feel the cold beginning to creep beneath my skin.. and have been daydreaming of traveling to warmer places. It has been chilly at night and I have found myself wrestling once again with insomnia. It is only in the late hours of the night that I can finally find some peace and quiet, some time to myself.. and yet, once my mind starts going I have difficulty getting it to stop. There is so much I have been wanting to write.. more of myself I want to share, but I can't seem to find enough time. I have been continuing "soul searching".. praying, writing, listening to music. I started re-reading a book that I bought almost 10 years ago while living in Nashville that I have never finished, "The Four Loves" by C.S. Lewis. It has brought back many memories from that time in my life.. and I find it interesting (but not surprising) that parts of the book I didn't understand back then, make perfect sense to me now. I have grown and changed so much since those days.. although many things I knew then have been lost over time and I find myself trying to get back to the beginning again. To remember where I came from.. where I've been.. so that I can take that knowledge and experience with me as I continue on this journey. Emotionally and physically it has been a draining week for me.. anxiety has been trying to take hold. My future suddenly seems uncertain, as I prepare to make some changes in the coming months ahead.
I apologize for being so vague, but running on only a few hours of sleep last night my mind feels slow and numb. Spiritually though I feel more awake than I have ever felt inside.. and I must keep reminding myself that over time this Season too shall pass. (Mathew 6: 25-34)
Eventually we all move on and become scattered about..
May your weekend be filled with new doors just waiting to be opened and explored..
XOXO, Erin
Already I can feel the cold beginning to creep beneath my skin.. and have been daydreaming of traveling to warmer places. It has been chilly at night and I have found myself wrestling once again with insomnia. It is only in the late hours of the night that I can finally find some peace and quiet, some time to myself.. and yet, once my mind starts going I have difficulty getting it to stop. There is so much I have been wanting to write.. more of myself I want to share, but I can't seem to find enough time. I have been continuing "soul searching".. praying, writing, listening to music. I started re-reading a book that I bought almost 10 years ago while living in Nashville that I have never finished, "The Four Loves" by C.S. Lewis. It has brought back many memories from that time in my life.. and I find it interesting (but not surprising) that parts of the book I didn't understand back then, make perfect sense to me now. I have grown and changed so much since those days.. although many things I knew then have been lost over time and I find myself trying to get back to the beginning again. To remember where I came from.. where I've been.. so that I can take that knowledge and experience with me as I continue on this journey. Emotionally and physically it has been a draining week for me.. anxiety has been trying to take hold. My future suddenly seems uncertain, as I prepare to make some changes in the coming months ahead.
I apologize for being so vague, but running on only a few hours of sleep last night my mind feels slow and numb. Spiritually though I feel more awake than I have ever felt inside.. and I must keep reminding myself that over time this Season too shall pass. (Mathew 6: 25-34)
Eventually we all move on and become scattered about..
May your weekend be filled with new doors just waiting to be opened and explored..
XOXO, Erin
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Corner View "White"
This week's Corner View topic is "White". I found myself this past week seeing small white details in things I may have ordinarily missed. I also threw in a few extra "white photos" that I have recently taken. To explore other Corner Views, visit Jane at Spain daily for a list of other participants. Enjoy!
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Monday, September 28, 2009
You picked me. : )
Awww, I feel completely flattered to me nominated for not only one, but two amazing blog awards today by two extremely gorgeous and creative women. Thank you!
The first was from Penny who ever so kindly passed along an Honest Scrap Award to me. And here I was, all worried about sharing TMI. :)
So, here we go.. the rules are as followed below..
a) Say thanks and give a link to the presenter of the award.
b) Share "10 Honest Things" about myself.
c) Present this award to 7 others whose blogs I find brilliant in content and/or design, or those who have encouraged me.
d) Tell those 7 people they've been awarded HONEST SCRAP and inform them of these
guidelines in receiving.
Hmm, now I have to figure out what to share with you that I haven't already!
10 Honest things about myself:
1) I am wearing socks with textured slip-proof suction cup-like things on the bottom.
2) I am extremely accident prone and in one year alone had 2 concussions, 1 falling down the stairs, 1 slight electrocution, and it seems like there is something else I am forgetting.. (probably a result of the concussions.)
3) As klutzy as I am, I have always dreamed of being a ballet dancer, who can on occasion, and if needed.. break out some amazing hip hop moves.
4) I have seen "Save the Last Dance" more times than any other movie.
5) Dry skin bothers me in the same way that finger nails on the chalkboard does other people. I put lotion on my feet before putting on my suction cup socks.
7) I have not started my ballet conditioning workout yet, but hope to before this week is over.
8) My first love was African American, probably another reason why I relate to that movie so much.
9) I don't believe that there is one person for all of us. I think that love comes in many different forms and that we can have many true loves throughout our lifetime.
10) I have attempted to read C.S. Lewis' book "The Four Loves" many times and have never been able to finish it. I might try again..
I am sharing this award with the following 7 honest bloggers..
Kacy
Jane
Chrissy
Amy
Alana
Wendy
Lori
The second award (as if one weren't enough!) came from the lovely Jennifer Aniston.. er.. I mean, Megs. who passed along a Creative Blogger Award to me. :)
Okay, you know the drill..
1. Thank the person who nominated you for this award.
2. Copy the logo and place it on your blog.
3. Link to the person who nominated you for this award.
4. Name 7 things about yourself that people might not know.
5. Nominate 7 Kreative Bloggers.
6. Post links to the 7 blogs you nominate.
7. Leave a comment on each of the blogs letting them know they have been nominated
And AS IF you already haven't learned enough about me, here's a little more!
7 Things that people might not know about me:
1) I have crooked teeth, you wouldn't know because I NEVER smile with my teeth. I had braces when I was younger, but they seem to have shifted back again.
2) Sia is my favorite female musician. She has teeth just like mine.
3) I am so flat-chested that the only place I can find bras in my side is in the girls department (and sometimes H&M). I used to dislike this about myself, but then I read an interview with Erykah Badu once in "Organic Style" magazine saying that she buy hers in the the girls section of Sears and didn't seem the least bit embarrassed by it. I have felt slightly better about myself ever since.
4) I desperately miss "Organic Style" magazine. I have kept all my old issues and re-read them over and over. There will never be another magazine that compares.
5) I am also still in denial that "Gilmore Girls" has ended and watch the reruns on DVD over and over. There will never be another show that compares.
6) If I could have any job in the world it would be to create music soundtracks for television shows and movies.
7) I believe that I am the clay and God is the sculptor. I try daily to be open to change and growth.. as painful of a process as it may sometimes be. "Like an apple on the tree, hiding out behind the leaves, I was difficult to reach.. but you picked me."
And now, I would like to pass along this award to the following 7 creative bloggers..
Haley
Sherry
dongdong
Lisa
Marcy
Mimi
Pink & green mama
I would also like to give an extra one to my lovely and loyal blog follower, Madeline
That was so difficult! Each and every one of you are so beautifully unique and creative! And I don't know about you but.. was that as exhausting to read as it was for me to write?? Ha, I've been staring at the computer for so long now that I am beginning to go cross-eyed. Whew, lets just all close our eyes and listen to some music now. :)
Every time I hear this song, I sing along with it to God. :) Don't you think she looks so much like the beautiful and pregnant Yana?
XOXO, Erin
The first was from Penny who ever so kindly passed along an Honest Scrap Award to me. And here I was, all worried about sharing TMI. :)
So, here we go.. the rules are as followed below..
a) Say thanks and give a link to the presenter of the award.
b) Share "10 Honest Things" about myself.
c) Present this award to 7 others whose blogs I find brilliant in content and/or design, or those who have encouraged me.
d) Tell those 7 people they've been awarded HONEST SCRAP and inform them of these
guidelines in receiving.
Hmm, now I have to figure out what to share with you that I haven't already!
10 Honest things about myself:
1) I am wearing socks with textured slip-proof suction cup-like things on the bottom.
2) I am extremely accident prone and in one year alone had 2 concussions, 1 falling down the stairs, 1 slight electrocution, and it seems like there is something else I am forgetting.. (probably a result of the concussions.)
3) As klutzy as I am, I have always dreamed of being a ballet dancer, who can on occasion, and if needed.. break out some amazing hip hop moves.
4) I have seen "Save the Last Dance" more times than any other movie.
5) Dry skin bothers me in the same way that finger nails on the chalkboard does other people. I put lotion on my feet before putting on my suction cup socks.
7) I have not started my ballet conditioning workout yet, but hope to before this week is over.
8) My first love was African American, probably another reason why I relate to that movie so much.
9) I don't believe that there is one person for all of us. I think that love comes in many different forms and that we can have many true loves throughout our lifetime.
10) I have attempted to read C.S. Lewis' book "The Four Loves" many times and have never been able to finish it. I might try again..
I am sharing this award with the following 7 honest bloggers..
Kacy
Jane
Chrissy
Amy
Alana
Wendy
Lori
The second award (as if one weren't enough!) came from the lovely Jennifer Aniston.. er.. I mean, Megs. who passed along a Creative Blogger Award to me. :)
Okay, you know the drill..
1. Thank the person who nominated you for this award.
2. Copy the logo and place it on your blog.
3. Link to the person who nominated you for this award.
4. Name 7 things about yourself that people might not know.
5. Nominate 7 Kreative Bloggers.
6. Post links to the 7 blogs you nominate.
7. Leave a comment on each of the blogs letting them know they have been nominated
And AS IF you already haven't learned enough about me, here's a little more!
7 Things that people might not know about me:
1) I have crooked teeth, you wouldn't know because I NEVER smile with my teeth. I had braces when I was younger, but they seem to have shifted back again.
2) Sia is my favorite female musician. She has teeth just like mine.
3) I am so flat-chested that the only place I can find bras in my side is in the girls department (and sometimes H&M). I used to dislike this about myself, but then I read an interview with Erykah Badu once in "Organic Style" magazine saying that she buy hers in the the girls section of Sears and didn't seem the least bit embarrassed by it. I have felt slightly better about myself ever since.
4) I desperately miss "Organic Style" magazine. I have kept all my old issues and re-read them over and over. There will never be another magazine that compares.
5) I am also still in denial that "Gilmore Girls" has ended and watch the reruns on DVD over and over. There will never be another show that compares.
6) If I could have any job in the world it would be to create music soundtracks for television shows and movies.
7) I believe that I am the clay and God is the sculptor. I try daily to be open to change and growth.. as painful of a process as it may sometimes be. "Like an apple on the tree, hiding out behind the leaves, I was difficult to reach.. but you picked me."
And now, I would like to pass along this award to the following 7 creative bloggers..
Haley
Sherry
dongdong
Lisa
Marcy
Mimi
Pink & green mama
I would also like to give an extra one to my lovely and loyal blog follower, Madeline
That was so difficult! Each and every one of you are so beautifully unique and creative! And I don't know about you but.. was that as exhausting to read as it was for me to write?? Ha, I've been staring at the computer for so long now that I am beginning to go cross-eyed. Whew, lets just all close our eyes and listen to some music now. :)
Every time I hear this song, I sing along with it to God. :) Don't you think she looks so much like the beautiful and pregnant Yana?
XOXO, Erin
Weekend photo stream...
The rain stopped long enough to be able to get a bit of fresh air and exercise this weekend. It's such a beautiful time of year to wander around, explore nature, and just let your imagination run wild.. I thought I would give you a glimpse into my weekend by sharing some photos I took. Hope you enjoy!
Hope you all had a fun and restful weekend as well. :)
Hope you all had a fun and restful weekend as well. :)
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