Hey everyone.. sorry to keep you waiting in suspense. Thank you for all of your concerns and prayers, they mean a lot to me. Knowing I have the support and love of people I have never met simply blows my mind. :)
So, after a long and difficult ten year battle (aka; marriage) and quite a few separations over the years, J and I finally filed for divorce.
Our lease here is not up for another 7 months and we will continue living together as "roommates" as we have been until that time comes. It will give the boys and I a chance to adjust and prepare for the enormous amount of change that is to come. Our oldest was upset at first, but they have seen us go through this for some time now, and were caught in the middle of a several month long separation a few years ago, so it did not come entirely by surprise to them.
He and I were friends for many years before we dated and married, and we will continue to remain close friends, connected always through our children. It was a mutual agreement, something that should maybe have been reached long before now. But we held on to hope and tried our hardest for years to keep our family together. We finally reached our limit though and are now just waiting for the process to be complete so we can move on with our separate lives.
There is a great amount of peace between us as this heavy weight we have been carrying around for so long now has finally been broken and lifted. It is through the strength and love of God that I have made it through this difficult time.. and I have faith that He will continue to guide me as I embark upon this new journey.
It has to end to begin. :)
Thank you again,
I love you all and will keep you posted..
Erin
Erin, it sounds to me like you have both begun to heal just by mutually agreeing on this circumstance. It's weird, although the break up of a marriage is heartbreaking, remaining in a marriage with so much difficulty isn't healthy at all, so this is a step for the postitive. Your outlook is good and I'm thinking of you and sending positive light.
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Thinking of you....sending hugs and prayers.
ReplyDeleteWow girl, my heart goes out to you and your family...though you are absolutely right about how things must end in order for life to truly begin. I only wish you, your husband, and kids pure enlightenment and peace now and moving forward. I have to say, your words however sad, empower and I personally find strength in seeing that you know God will take care of things.
ReplyDeleteHope you are ok. Stay strong through the transition. X
ReplyDeleteOh, Erin. I wish you much healing and peace in the time to come. I know how difficult this is. My prayers are with all of you.
ReplyDeleteHugs and prayers for all of you.
ReplyDeleteDear Erin,
ReplyDeletethere aren't many things that do leave me out of words. Your writing does. In this world of loud noice it is a silent bow that I offer you, hoping that everything will turn out fine for all of you.
Having you in deep thoughts, allow me to wish you a wonderful Thursday. (ten to four in the morning)
Love, hugs and prayers to you all. That will never stop. ;)
ReplyDelete(((hugs))) Peace be with you.
ReplyDeleteBest of luck, peace, and wisdom as you navigate this new life. xo
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear this news, and pray that you will recieve peace. It sounds like you have a good outlook on this though I am sure it is not easy. The best thing my parents ever did for me was to be friends with one another.
ReplyDeleteso sorry to hear this...my prayers are with you and your family. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry for you... and I wish you a new beautiful, peaceful and lovely life. Courage.
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